sianz , exams starting nxt wk liaos! OMG! stress stress stress!! haiish! reali muz buck up ler. i hate 2 study lah! bt gt no choice. sobs ):
ytd was our skl sports carnival , aiyo was v sianz lah! n nth much 2 tok abt oso. halfway during d sports carnival , lester,xiong,waikit and taocheng run away. LOLs. abt 5 plus when d ting ended went 2 find dem wib laogong,sis,serena&soo hui. mit le den all went 2 jeremy hse outsid 2 slack.abt 6plus sumting happen. i told laogong sumting cuz i tot dat i shld tel him. after telling him he gan du lan , haiish. all ish moii fault oso!! i hab broken dat promise 4 2 tyms ler. haiish. he went 2 buy cig den came bac sudd shouted at mie ask mie wan smoke anot. HAIISH!! i was sho scared lo , scared he wil sae wan break all tis. bt he didn't. dat tym he was damn angry lo , tis ish d first tym i c him sho angry & oso d first tym he shouted at mie. haiish. i oso neva angry cuz ish moii fault. i hab broken dat promise 4 2 tyms sumore. if i were him i oso wil angry , sho i nv blame him. bt reali felt vvv sad dat tym. wanted 2 cry bt manage 2 control moii tears. sobs)): i shld'nt smoke again when i hab promise him b4 bt i stil go smoke. haiish. feel lyk slapping myself nw!!! recalled bac ytd de incident , nw reali felt v useless& as his gf i'm such a FAILURE!! haiish. i'm nt even deserve 2 be his gf. ):i cnt kip moii promises 2 him. haiish! i'm reali v sry laogong!! and he went 2 other side 2 sit and waikit,lester went 2 tok 2 him. dat tym reali cn feel dat he v angry. dono y when i stood up moii heart sudd v pain. lyk moii heartbeat goin stop liddat n die. da pain was unbearable, bt i stil cn tahan lah. sudd laogong walk bac den ask mie go 2 a corner. i cnt walk at dat tym bt stil manage 2 walk over 2 da other side. when i stood infront of him , he sudd hugged mie. reali v touched! bt oso gt a shock cuz i tot he v angry and stil cn hugged mie , den he kip saying sry 2 mie. haiish!! ish nt his fault at all n d 1 saying sry shld b mie & nt him. he sae he allow mie 2 smoke liaos. bt i wun smoke animor. i didn't gib him promises dat i wun smoke cuz i noe he oso v diff 2 bliv mie de. sho i cn oni use actions 2 prove it 2 him. haiish. sumore he go hit his hand on da noticeboard oso. reali feel v guilty! bcuz ob mie he go hit his hand. DUI BU QI! moii heart reali ache at dat tym. all i noe ish dat 'I'm at fault!! da biggest mistake i hab make ish dat broken promise. haiish!! i'm reali v sry LAOGONG!! shouldn't make euu sho angry de. haiish. i'm a failure , reali. other den sry i dono wad mor cn i sae ler. haix. bt nw everyting ish over&okae le =]
Laogong , i'm reali v sry. i noe ish moii fault. bt i wun touch dat ting le. i neva ask 4 ur blivness. cuz i wil prove it 2 euu. haiish. hope nxt tym wun hab tings happening lyk ytd liddat liaos. after ytd de incident i den realise i cnt afford 2 lose him. i need him mor den aniting else!! nw i oso scared d 2yrs promise dat he hab make 2 mie. wil it reali last?? haiish. nw reali scared dat 1 day he wil sae wan break. haiish! don tink sho much lah liping!!!! bt i TRUST moii LAOGONG & our REALTIONSHIP. we wil LAST de. hees. (: hope euu wil 4giv mie 4 wad i hab done. sry sry sry!!! i reali cnt afford 2 lose euu , don ever leave mie okae?? i wun gib euu empty promises le , reali. tis ish da last tym liaos.
* INEEDEUU!!! i reali LOVES EUU LOTTSSS!!!!! WOAINIIES! MUACKS! *FOREVA LOVE* KOHWEIYI ; moii ONE&ONLY!! ((:
